View Full Version : My dog passed away :(
Pizdzius
09-04-2010, 02:49 PM
My dog just died after cancer operation. :( She was the best dog ever, they took out the spleen with the tumour, but she was so ill, after one day she started to feel worse, suffering in my arms within two hours. I'm sorry but I have to take it out somewhere and I know I have friends here. My IRL ones told me to fuck off so basically I just can't cope with how my Sonia suffered.
We found her 10 years ago, cured her from many diseases, she went blind, but she loved us a lot. We're going to put her in a dog grave and I'm going to make a relief for the grave.
How any of you handled such loss? she was everything for me, only creature that loved me and was happy to see me every time.
Dohni
09-04-2010, 03:55 PM
I'm sorry for your loss Piz. I know this pain too. It does get easier to bare but it takes time.
Just keep remembering the happy times you spent together
nedax
09-04-2010, 04:01 PM
:S it´s sad when you lose a friend, even a dog... i´m sorry piz :/
surak
09-04-2010, 04:03 PM
:(
I'm sorry Piz.
I'm sorry Piz. Loosing a friend is hard. I had a cat as a child and loved her alot. I still remember that crazy cat.
Hope you get better soon. :(
Draw something, do stuff you like to do, stay alone for a while, cry if you feel you need to.
Arafails
09-04-2010, 04:33 PM
It sucks, man. We all grieve for your loss.
When my first dog died, I cried for about a week. I still get choked up if I think about it.
brammie2118
09-04-2010, 04:35 PM
I am sorry man :(
Torg_Snowflake
09-04-2010, 05:05 PM
I am sorry for your loss...
Keep a memento of her always with you. It will help you remember the good times.
Pizdzius
09-04-2010, 05:51 PM
I do have a lot of stuff to keep memories fresh, thanks so much for the kind words, you guys have no idea how nice it is. So many people have pets, and everybody has to bare with this. I'm just happy I gave my Sonia 10 years of happy life, I knew she'll die when I was holding her today, I got prepared a bit.
Thanks again for compassion I appreciate it A LOT.
Matrak
09-04-2010, 07:28 PM
I'm really sorry for you mate...
But you were wrong on one point, that nobody else loves you...
I think I'm not the only one here that loves you! :wub2:
You're the most awesome guy I've ever met on the internet!:thumb:
Ulti19
09-04-2010, 09:34 PM
I feel for you man. I had a dog for 12 years and the day he went was the saddest in my life. I like animals more than people. At least you have good memories when they were alive :)
_Enio_
09-04-2010, 09:42 PM
Aww :/ *hugs*
Im sorry.
necroferos
09-04-2010, 10:08 PM
I'm sorry piz!
But I think that you should feel better, because your dog had a beautiful life with a owner that love him.
Regards!!
PD: Sorry for bad English, I'm Spanish -.-
Pizdzius
09-04-2010, 10:27 PM
Thanks so much guys, really. It's so empty without her paws' scurry noise around.
Mbwana
09-04-2010, 11:17 PM
really sorry to hear about your loss Piz, at least she had had a full life
Pizdzius
09-05-2010, 09:38 AM
Aw man. Today morning I was waking up and I felt how she's putting her nose under my hand and her head and she tries to wake me up, as always. It was so real I got up, sure she's there. I never felt anything so real, ever. :(
Lekarz
09-05-2010, 10:31 AM
I'm sorry Piz,
You don't have to believe it, just read it:
Someone told that, The God created dogs because man was sad . They are more closer friend than another man. They always love us, never hates, they life to make us happier, more human, to know how to life well and die when our time is gone. Their short-but-great life as our companion prepares us to our own death, to don't cry but feel happy keeping in mind these small happy muzzles.
When I see my 6 old Lucky and know that her breed's average lifetime is 10 years I am trying to imagine how bad do you feel.
What can I say? Remember your dog's life and give another dog similar or better one, thats all.
Damn, I cry...
Static_Fang
09-05-2010, 12:45 PM
Bro, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Having lost a few pets in my life I know how gutting such an event can be.
But it was better that you gave her such a wonderful time than any other alternative. You did the right thing, a very good thing. But, each action has an equal and opposite reaction. Since you did so much good to her, the loss will do you so much harm.
I really wish I could afford the time and money to come in person and try to help my bro out.
Altara
09-05-2010, 01:07 PM
Im so sorry to hear that Piz :/
I know its not easy to lose a friend, even if it is a dog.
I had a similar experience, My dog, was a gift from my step dad many years ago, Well... a little background, Ive never been a very social person, so most of my time was spent with this dog. We grew up together in a way. Every time I needed company, after a boy dumped me or something stupid like that, she would always be there, or when I was even younger, made me feel safe when I was scared at night.
Anyways, early this year she started to get something like a cyst on her ankle and started to limp. When I took her to the vet I found out she had more like the one on her ankle in her intestines and stuff like that...
So I spoke with my family and we decided the best choice was to put her down. Since, none of us had the eight thousand for surgery and another thousand to keep up with the medication she would need to keep her alive after.
After the decision was made, we had to wait two weeks before the day would come. I think the thing that still haunts me is watching her be so playful but still look like she was in so much pain.
But, the way I see it, as long as she isn't in pain anymore its worth it to lose her. It gets easier Piz, believe me.
Disclaimer: I'm a big boy and did not cry trying to write this :/
Gawyn_Trakkand
09-05-2010, 02:10 PM
I have had a few pets in my time and it is a pain when they pass on but you cant dwell that they are gone just remember the times they made you roll on the floor laughing or made your heart lighten after a bad day.
Though alot of us do not know you well, most of us will be familiar with your loss i feel for you dude.
P.S next time an IRL friend needs you tell them to fuck off :fury: a friend like that aint worth calling a friend.
Pizdzius
09-05-2010, 04:12 PM
thank you all guys so so very much. It's not easy, but it's less hard thanks to you. Let me share Sonia's beauty, aussie mix.
http://img339.imageshack.us/img339/8696/pict0852b.jpg
I'm glad all pictures I have of her are the nice and happy ones. They're so much better to remember than her last hours.
Altara, it's all very similar here. Thanks for that post.
Matrak
09-05-2010, 06:16 PM
Aww...she looks so nice...real shame Piz...real shame...
Dark_Barbarian
09-05-2010, 06:40 PM
piz is not the only one with a great loss. few years ago back when i was like 9 maybe 10 we had a cat named KC she was my lovely cat but when i woke up one morning mom told me KC died i cried for hours and hours i loved KC very much and thats it. :ohill:
Sorry to hear that. :( I know exactly how you feel.
Look from the other side: she was a very happy because you took an awesome care of her! You ll be missing her, but you know she had what many dogs might not have: a lot of love, fun and care till the end.
chris32finney
09-05-2010, 08:19 PM
Last year i rescued a chihuahua/terrier cross breed from a pigsty that some old guy left him locked in, hes called "tippy" and he farts worse than me :superpusso: hes my best pal in the world now and i'd be lost without his "good morning snuggles" so i can't even imagine how crushed youre feeling and i hope in time you feel better.
We all have major losses in our lives and of course family is worse (my dads about to die) but pets are still a massive loss so all the best piz and just try to take each day as it comes.
Syd_Vicious
09-07-2010, 03:09 AM
One thing to do Piz is not to go through the motions. I have a very bad temper in some instances and it is mainly tied to my lack of coping skills with bereavement. One thing that I have had to learn is to let go of the illusion of control. My first dog was a beast of a Labrador that I named Hunter. To me he was very special because when growing up my family normally lived in a rental house because my dad did not want to deal with mortgage payments. I finally got a dog when I was 13. We adopted him from the Nike Animal Rescue Foundation. They neutered him at 3 weeks old, so he grew to be the size of a Saint Bernard.
To make the story go by quickly, I graduated high school, went to college and then joined the Army. My family back in California took care of him while I was away at war. Unfortunately my sister had a son from a drug addict and the baby growing up turned out to be overly physical. Once he hit his toddler years he started staying with my mom while my sister worked. Hunter ended up snapping at him at one time because the boy started to tug on his tail and ears.
My mom ended up putting Hunter down because he was old and he didn't like the toddler being in the house. At first I was very angry with this because it all happened when I was deployed. Why couldn't they have contacted me before making the decision, why couldn't they have put him up for adoption rather than putting him down, and a flood of other questions. After a year being deployed, I had to come to grips with the fact that once I went home I couldn't see my dog again. What I wasn't paying attention to though was everyone else's experiences with him while I was gone. He was my dog and in the house I was the alpha male. No one else in the house could keep him in place. He was a 160lbs lab that was 28 inches at the shoulder that wasn't going to put up with my weak willed family.
In the end I realized that, while it was not something I wanted, I could see why they had done what they had done. They couldn't keep him in line, he was becoming aggressive towards my nephew, and he was suffering from hip dysplasia from his size and old age. He was not a prime candidate for adoption because he only had about a year left to his life span anyways. It took some time, but I got through it. I still cry like a little bitch when I see movies like Marley and Me, but that is okay. The important thing I have found is realizing: 1) there was nothing I could do or if I had done something then it was all I could do, 2) the actions that had taken place, while not to my liking, was necessary to prevent a more tragic event from occurring, and 3) Realizing that everything had been done and I had no control - that blaming myself and others was not accomplishing anything, but serving my own selfish thoughts.
In life control is an illusion, things will happen whether they are good or bad and whether you want them to or not. The important thing is being able to remember the good times to get through the bad.
Sorry if this was a bit long, but I figured you wanted a back story and some details.
Pizdzius
09-07-2010, 03:30 AM
Thanks Syd, I know it means a lot to you and took some strength to write it here. I appreciate and I'm so sorry they didn't even tell you about putting him to sleep. I'm trying not to blame myself as you say, trying to live with all the nice memories. It's just so hard to understand and accept she doesn't exist anymore.
But now I have this crappy feeling that if I didn't decide for the operation, she'd lived and it's my fault, even if she's gotten worse at health. Spleen cancer, womb cancer and liver cirrhosis. Because of liver barely active she didn't cope with the painkillers after the operation and she started dying in my arms after 24 hours from when I saw her happy and playful with me. She was in heavy pain, delusional, within two hours I spent with her in the clinic I noticed she doesn't even know I'm around, she was just crying nonstop, not even moving anymore. They told me to leave and I went home, crying. Then I felt just sudden emptyness and stopped crying at all. I don't know if it's some connection, I just felt sudden emptyness in my heart and I knew. 10 minutes later, a call that she died during the post-operation procedure to check why she's so weak. I'm just glad she died in sleep, not in pain.
I do realise if I didn't force the operation, she'd explode from the inside within a week, month or a year, but it'd happen and she'd die in pain, even probably home alone. I'm happy I could be with her the last hours.
What's terrible is that it happened so suddenly, after the operation they said it's going to be fine, that she survived the worst and now she has to heal. I wish they didn't tell that to me, creating high hopes.
It's just so unreal, it's not the control of her passing, it's just that unbearable helplessness that I couldn't do anything to cease her agony or go back in time and spend more time with her than I actually did. She was my whole world, for 10 years only creature that was happy to see me, loved me, hugged me when I got home from studies. Literally, she put her paws around my neck and snuggled her head onto my neck. (sometimes even staying like that for 15 minutes) She was almost human, that's why it's not just a pet dying for me. Maybe not like a child, but one of most important creatures in the world.
And we buried her in pet cemetery, I'm not going to let her body be thrown into a huge furnace with thousands of other city rats etc.
Damn it was good to take it all out.
Syd_Vicious
09-07-2010, 03:57 AM
Unbearable helplessness is the feeling of no control. It is very hard to let that go and there will always be a "what if" moment. That is the intellect side of your brain that is recommending a new situational proof to try and ascertain a semblance of control, but it doesn't allow the emotional part of your brain to grieve properly. Wisdom is realizing that there will always be the "what if" moment, but shelving it in favor of the actual present. That is what I mean about learning to lose the illusion of control.
I do agree with you that the Doctors should not have told you that.
I am glad talking more about it has made you feel better.
Pizdzius
09-07-2010, 11:08 AM
Thanks Syd. You're one of the most intelligent people around and not only that, kind and helpful.
Kianoni
09-07-2010, 05:58 PM
hugs to Piz!
I've never lost a pet (yet) so I can't really know how you feel, have strength and remember you gave your dog a good life after all. And you did the best you could for him! May he rest in piece and his memories live long.
Syd_Vicious
09-07-2010, 08:06 PM
Thanks Syd. You're one of the most intelligent people around and not only that, kind and helpful.
Thanks, I just wish I hadn't learned most of it the hard way. On a more positive note my Macaw is barking at my 3 dogs that I have now :nunchaku:
Pizdzius
09-07-2010, 09:48 PM
Thanks, I just wish I hadn't learned most of it the hard way. On a more positive note my Macaw is barking at my 3 dogs that I have now :nunchaku:
3 dogs? damn that's a lot of work.
Syd_Vicious
09-08-2010, 01:19 AM
Yep 2 Beagles and 1 Chiweenie (Dachshund/Chihuahua Mix), but the Macaw is more high maintenance than the dogs.
Puck is 6
Ronin is 4 (we sometimes call him Peter Griffin because those skin flaps under his chin look like a pair of nuts)
Jolie the Severe Macaw is 4
Bell the Chiweenie is 13 weeks old (only like 3 pounds)
Pizdzius
09-08-2010, 11:20 AM
Yep 2 Beagles and 1 Chiweenie (Dachshund/Chihuahua Mix), but the Macaw is more high maintenance than the dogs.
Puck is 6
Ronin is 4 (we sometimes call him Peter Griffin because those skin flaps under his chin look like a pair of nuts)
Jolie the Severe Macaw is 4
Bell the Chiweenie is 13 weeks old (only like 3 pounds)
The dogs are absolutely awesome. I fancy such breeds more than Labs or german shepherds ;D
the parrot, well I don't know much about birds, she looks sweet too :D
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