Life...

[Hell_bound]

Originally Posted by Xephandor

Thank you. I'm a bit confused...

What I said was said in anger and know that sometimes my anger can take control of me... And for that I'm sorry.

You know through our conversations we have come to some common ground to where we can see each other as we are.

No pretenses of a hidden agenda and no BS, you know?

Thing is you have the upper hand, for you speak Spanish. Yet you also speak English... The breakdown in communication could be lessened if I were able to speak Spanish...

However, to know me as you do - I just felt like I was being scolded at, as if I was the little kid here...

To be open to someone and then to perceive such a thing being done - is like being trampled on...

Look if they took the time and effort to understand, and believe me I would give them my time, but they don't, do they?

Perhaps this is why I respond to you as I do, and to them as I do them...

No matter, for you know these things already...

So I leave you with this...

Originally Posted by Henry Rollins

I know you
You were too short
You had bad skin
You couldn't talk to them very well
Words didn't seem to work
They lied when they came out of your mouth

You tried so hard to understand them
You wanted to be part of what was happening
You saw them having fun
And it seemed like such a mystery
Almost magic

Made you think that there was something wrong with you
You'd look in the mirror and try to find it
You thought that you were ugly
And that everyone was looking at you

So you learned to be invisible
To look down
To avoid conversation

The hours, days, weekends
Ah, the weekend nights alone
Where were you?
In the basement?
In the attic?
In your room?
Working some job - just to have something to do.
Just to have a place to put yourself
Just to have a way to get away from them
A chance to get away from the ones that made you feel
so strange and ill at ease inside yourself

Did you ever get invited to one of their parties?
You sat and wondered if you would go or not
For hours you imagined the scenarios that might transpire
They would laugh at you
If you would know what to do
If you'd have the right things on
If they would notice that you came from a different planet

Did you get all brave in your thoughts?
Like you going to be able to go in there and deal with it
and have a great time.
Did you think that you might be the life of the party?
That all these people were gonna talk to you and you
would find out that you were wrong?
That you had a lot of friends and you weren't so
strange after all?

Did you end up going?
Did they mess with you?
Did they single you out?
Did you find out that you were invited because they
thought you were so weird?

Yeah, I think I know you
You spent a lot of time full of hate
A hate that was pure sunshine
A hate that saw for miles
A hate that kept you up at night
A hate that filled your every waking moment
A hate that carried you for a long time

Yes, I think I know you
You couldn't figure out what they saw in the way they lived

Home was not home
Your room was home
A corner was home
The place they weren't, that was home

I know you

You're sensitive and you hide it because you fear
getting stepped on one more time
It seems that when you show a part of yourself that is
the least bit vulnerable someone takes advantage of you
One of them steps on you

They mistake kindliness for weakness
But you know the difference
You've been the brunt of their weakness for years
And strength is something you know a bit about because
you had to be strong to keep yourself alive

You know yourself very well now
And you don't trust people
You know them too well

You try to find that special person
Someone you can be with
Someone you can touch
Someone you can talk to
Someone you don't feel so strange around
And you find that they don't really exist
You feel closer to people on movie screens

Yeah, I think I know you
You spend a lot of time daydreaming
And people have made comment to that effect
Telling you that you're self involved, and self centred

But they don't know, do they?
About the long night shifts alone
About the years of keeping yourself company
All the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself
so you could imagine someone holding you
The hours of indecision, self doubt
The intense depression
The blinding hate
The rage that made you stagger
The devastation of rejection

Well, maybe they do know
But if they do, they sure do a good job of hiding it
It astounds you how they can be so smooth
How they seem to pass through life as if life itself
was some divine gift
And it infuriates you to watch yourself with your
apparent skill at finding every way possible to screw it up

For you life is a long trip
Terrifying and wonderful
Birds sing to you at night
The rain and the sun the changing seasons are true friends
Solitude is a hard won ally, faithful and patient

Yeah, I think I know you

[ArcticWolf]

That song applies both of us.

I want to reiterate on my previous comment: we're fighting here to tell what life is while we're loosing the chance to live it. We have experience, it's true, but yet there are a lot of things to come, a lot of problems to face and a lot of effort to make.

All of us have experienced awful situations. We all have our traits etched into our souls, but it's when you look back in the past and see that all the effort and sacrifice you've done when you finally realize it was worth the road. It's hard, and sometimes you have to walk it alone.

Life in this forum is just a small picture of what's outside. If people refrain from going outside it's their sole responsibility, and even if you want to help them the only thing you can do is to give them advice.

However, to know me as you do - I just felt like I was being scolded at, as if I was the little kid here...

To be open to someone and then to perceive such a thing being done - is like being trampled on...

Look if they took the time and effort to understand, and believe me I would give them my time, but they don't, do they?

Do it silently. The ones who are willing to take your advice will do, while the rest will keep on walking.

[Hell_bound]

Originally Posted by Xephandor

... I want to reiterate on my previous comment: we're fighting here to tell what life is while we're loosing the chance to live it. We have experience, it's true, but yet there are a lot of things to come, a lot of problems to face and a lot of effort to make.

All of us have experienced awful situations. We all have our traits etched into our souls, but it's when you look back in the past and see that all the effort and sacrifice you've done when you finally realize it was worth the road. It's hard, and sometimes you have to walk it alone...

This was very nice Xephandor and shows that you not only got the message, but are in fact a carrier of the message...

What can I say, oh wise sage?

Ah, I know another song!

Perhaps my last, though don't count on it

Originally Posted by David Bowie

Wake up you sleepy head
Put on some clothes, shake up your bed
Put another log on the fire for me
I've made some breakfast and coffee
Look out my window and what do I see
A crack in the sky and a hand reaching down to me

All the nightmares came today
And it looks as though they're here to stay

What are we coming to
No room for me, no fun for you
I think about a world to come
Where the books were found by the Golden ones
Written in pain, written in awe
By a puzzled man who questioned
What we were here for

All the strangers came today
And it looks as though they're here to stay

Oh You Pretty Things
Don't you know you're driving your
Mamas and Papas insane

Oh You Pretty Things
Don't you know you're driving your
Mamas and Papas insane

Let me make it plain
You gotta make way for the Homo Superior

Look at your children
See their faces in golden rays
Don't kid yourself they belong to you
They're the start of a coming race

The earth is a bitch
We've finished our news
Homo Sapiens have outgrown their use

All the strangers came today
And it looks as though they're here to stay

Oh You Pretty Things
Don't you know you're driving your
Mamas and Papas insane

Oh You Pretty Things
Don't you know you're driving your
Mamas and Papas insane

Let me make it plain
You gotta make way for the Homo Superior

And let it be known, from this day forward, that the Superior Homo-sapien will now be known as Xephandor!

[Static_Fang]

Notice how H_B evades my question, flames me for it and picks on my friends.

H_B, i take that as your defeat, and 'i leave you with this' (as you say)

Cudos bitch, you put up a nice argument for a simple minded fool, Just kidding, you suck.

Continue to fight, althought i have already won.
Friends, community of Regnum, you are free.
<Venom holds head of H_B up to the people>

[ncvr]

Originally Posted by Static_Fang

Notice how H_B evades my question, flames me for it and picks on my friends.

H_B, i take that as your defeat, and 'i leave you with this' (as you say)

Cudos bitch, you put up a nice argument for a simple minded fool, Just kidding, you suck.

Continue to fight, althought i have already won.
Friends, community of Regnum, you are free.
<Venom holds head of H_B up to the people>

Don't call him back...

[mann2411]

dam i missed the arugement
well ink posted most of my opnion soooooo
yes
end of thread i surpose
unless he comes back
*fingers crossed*

[Pizdzius]

Originally Posted by Necrovarus

...

you're almost 1800!

[Inkster]

Originally Posted by Inkster

I eagerly await for response in an adult, non lyrical format

How disappointing. Instead of replying in an adult manner he has to resort to schoolyard insults, Secondly he just had to finish with his lyric spam

I pity this guy, but will not waste any more of my precious time feeding his ego

[Envy]

Originally Posted by Inkster

How disappointing. Instead of replying in an adult manner he has to resort to schoolyard insults, Secondly he just had to finish with his lyric spam

I pity this guy, but will not waste any more of my precious time feeding his ego

I use this image too much, but some people are just awesome and need to be told so

[Miraculix]

hahaha gervais ftw

dammit gravat